Saturday, May 24, 2014

The Fault In Our Stars - John Green *Spoilers may be within this post if you haven't read it yet*

I've been wanting to read this book for over a year now but I hadn't gotten around to it. Well, last night I got around to it. Once I opened the book I was lost in a world of not being able to breath and fear and the certainty that one of the characters that I was falling in love with was going to die. I had only intended to read a couple of chapters before I went to bed, but time was meaningless as I devoured one page after the next, riveted by Hazel's story. I read the book in five and half hours, unable to put it down.

It wasn't until I woke up this afternoon that I realized why this work of fiction resonated so deeply within me.

I was Hazel Grace. Or, I very well could have been. It was like reading what my life could have been like had God not gifted me with a miracle.

I was born with Cystic Fibrosis.

Cystic fibrosis is a disease passed down through families that causes thick, sticky mucus to build up in the lungs, digestive tract, and other areas of the body. It is one of the most common chronic lung diseases in children and young adults. It is a life-threatening disorder.

Now at the time I was born in 1990 that was a death sentence before you hit 17. In fact my Doctors informed my parents that I wouldn't see my sixteenth birthday. Now, I've learned that treatment options have improved in the last 23 years and the life expectancy is longer, but CF is still a death sentence, it can not be cured it can only be prolonged.

By age sixteen I would have been a lot like Hazel Grace. Lungs constantly filled with fluid, steroids rushing through my veins wreaking havoc on my body. (They still actually do that now.) Pulling around an oxygen tank so I can breath. Living with the fact that some day I would hurt every person I loved and cared about because I would die. I was a grenade and I would leave scars.

Reading this book I get a glimpse of how my life could have been. Given my introverted personality I'm sure my list of friends would have been just as small as Hazel's.

John Green did something amazing with the two teenaged characters, he made them realistic. There was none of the normal teen angst you get from a YA book, these teens were dealing with the fact that they were fighting their own bodies for a chance to live.

It's really hard to describe how deeply this book has touched me. Usually I can't say that about a book that has little mention of God. And that was, to me, the only element missing.

But unlike Hazel Grace, God gifted me with a miracle, He gave me a brand new set of lungs, ones that had no trace of CF, no scars, no fluid. Because of my parents amazing Faith and obedience to God. Not only did He heal me, but He removed the genetic markers for CF, meaning I don't have to worry if my children will inherit a death sentence.

My 24th birthday is coming up in a month, and I can't help but remember that the Dr's said I would be lucky to live to 16...Every day is a gift granted to me. And I'll never understand or know why God picked me instead of some other child. All I know is that my Father fixed me and gave me a life that I wouldn't have had otherwise.

If you have the time, I really recommend this book. I don't usually do reviews, but I just really wanted to talk about this book and how it touched me.

I hope everyone is having a great weekend!

Sola Fide

Sunday, May 18, 2014


At the urging of my Dad and Brother I went out to the lakeside park with them Friday evening and took photo's while they kicked around  a soccer ball. (or football for those Non-Americans ;))   I don't feel like I was able to capture many great photo's because of the poor lighting but I did manage to get a few that I'm happy enough with to share.

The geese really had my attention, and I tried my hardest to 'sneak up' on them. There were three Geese families all with little chicks. They were adorable but the moment I got very close they slipped off into the water. 

Hope you all have had a great weekend!!
Sola Fide


Wednesday, May 14, 2014

More Bleaching

Well guys, I decided to try out some more bleaching!!  I have this variegated cotton yarn my mom gave me a while back and I personally just don't like it one little bit. So I've been trying to figure out what to do with the pound of of it I have. So, I rolled it off it's cone into 4 center pull balls and my Mom suggested that I try and bleach it. So I did... I can't say I'm in love with the results, but it's a sight better than what it was before lol.



Sole Fide

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Mother's Day

I hope all of the mothers out there had a very happy Mother's day. I'm not yet a mother so It was really just another day for me. 

I made Middle Eastern cumin meatballs and mashed potato's for dinner for my Momma, and it was surprisingly good. I can't eat beef so I substituted ground beef for ground venison (deer meat!) And I was really surprised at the outcome. I don't usually do anything like this, I'm more of a soup cooker. I followed the recipe pretty much except for the sauce. It needed a lot of time I'm going to try instant potato's as a thickener, watery sauces aren't my thing. I didn't get photo's, sadly I forgot. But the 3lbs of meatballs were gone so I guess that means it was good!

Now on to the gift! I was really at a loss on what to give my mom this year as I'm currently jobless so had no funds to buy her anything. So, of course I turn to my handy hook and yarn! 

Just a tip...never wait till the last few's a really bad idea. 

I had roughly 9 skeins of Lion Brand Homespun laying in my stash, most of which was already planned for a blanket for my mom I just hadn't been able to decide on a pattern. So I got out my super big Q hook and paired two strands of yarn and got to work. Overall I used 11 skeins (I had to go get more!)  The main color was Sierra and Tudor and I edged it with Wildfire. 

After the first was SOOO heavy. My arms and shoulders hurt so bad lol. My wrist suffered to, but I pressed on. And got the entire thing done in two nights. It's 38in wide and 6ft long. And so..heavy and soft. It'll be great when the cold weather rolls back around. 

Sole Fida

Wednesday, May 7, 2014


Guys! I taught myself to knit!!! I am SO proud of myself. It took for. ever. To knit this length of scarf before I ran out of yarn. It made me sad...because I had to frog it. I'm working on a new one now, a skinnier one. So maybe it will get long enough this time!! But I'm just so excited about being able to do this now. :D  I can't wait until I'm good enough to knit socks!!! that's really the only reason I want to so I can knit socks. xD

Sole Fide